Parents: Remember what they and life teach you

I was just scrolling through facebook as you do on a page called Humans of New York after a very lazy day of self pity after a night out. And I was touched by some of the stuff I was reading. More so to the point of tears. These were  tears of sadness. People who know me know that it's not easy to get a tear out of me. But for missing him, I'll cry. My dad. My strong, loving dad. He past away 11 days before his 46th birthday and 12 days before my 10th birthday. I remember the time I heard the news and how so sudden it was. It hurts whenever I think about it. It hurts. 

Whats the greatest thing he ever taught me? Sadly I don't know exactly. Some of my childhood memories are a bit of a blur but I do have some many memories I could share with you and maybe in that I'll discover something he taught me. He was always so proud of his children. And us of him. So protective, loving and caring. For that I loved him. If I can put memory and memory together I'd say something that he taught me and possibly what I could live by is just to have strength and confidence in yourself and to enjoy life cos sadly it's clearly just not long enough and you just never know what will happen. Live today like it's your last I've heard before. And do you know what, the love and the 'caring-ness' he showed us is something I will do for my children if I ever have them. That. That is something he taught me. Not in so many words, but through action. He probably didn't know at that time that that he was teaching me something. But 11 years later I'm sitting here and I remember that. Thank you dad. And also if you're naughty you'll be in great trouble. You never wanted to be in trouble with my father!

Parents go through a crazy amount for their kids. I can happily say this because my mum is the perfect example of this. I'll never be able to thank her enough. We have so many of our moments, mainly because I've grown up and have a mind of my own but beneath all that is everything she has done and still does for her children. I realise I do sometimes take advantage but after this maybe I really shouldn't. 

You should at some point be able to answer some of these questions?

What's the greatest thing your mum ever taught you?

What's the greatest thing your dad ever taught you?

What is your best memory with your parents?

If you can't well then atleast spend some quality time with them if you should be so blessed to still have them in your life. But of course families are not always perfect but if you can you should. Cherish the moments. 

Only when you're older do you realise like okay fine they were right.

Happy Friday.

Easily distracted, Easily impressed, Easily amused.

It's raining. My room is a mess but it feels great. The rain hitting hard against my window just makes everything inside just so cosy. Like I am in the safest place I could be right now. Right this minute. And then I remember I just have so much to do. First clean my messy room, (others might not agree with what is messy to me and what is messy to them but let's just say I may have a slight case of healthy OCD), Then rearrange the thoughts and billion things going on in my mind. Oh wait something else just popped up in my head. My mind is a chaotic mess of imagintion. So easily distracted. That's me. (oh by the way, I just got distracted for a good 5 minutes just then while reading another blog). Right. I'm back. For now.

Distractions. Like staring at the the permanent dimples on that guys face enough to make sure I pour alcohol or sugar syrup down my arm as I work my friday night shift at the nightclub. Or my crazy obsession for an incredible set of teeth setting up for a great smile aimed at me...that's a lie the smile may not be aimed at me but I glare regardless. In that moment I am distracted, very distracted and will be for the next few minutes. Excuse me while I rearrange my thoughts. Ah.

But what if we all took an all important moment to focus our thoughts. What could we possibly come up with? What could we be on to? I'm not saying you are going to come up with the next genius idea like Bill Gates did with Microsoft or Richard Branson did with Virgin but I'm not saying you can't either. That I don't have the answer for. But I swear we could be a bit more mind free if we tried this. But maybe it's easier said than done right. But there are times when we just need to go with our thoughts/mind. When to do this is a question for oneself.

Easily impressed. That person you didn't know so well at school is all over social media going for their dreams and achieving them. I find it very inspirational. When your friends are doing it big and are happy. I'm impressed. When people just don't stop fighting for their goals.I'm impressed. Constantly positive people. I'm impressed. A guy in a suit. Intellectual free flowing conversation. People who secretly work hard and I find out or can see it. I'm impressed. Easy but meaningful conversations. When people have hobbies outside their busy lives. I'm impressed. Humble people. I love them. The list goes on.

Easily amused. I'm so distracted and all over the place with my words I don't even know what point I'm trying to make right now. But is anyone else as easily amused as me? I always find myself doing the goofiest laugh to the silliest things on TV or silly people on TV like the ones you'll find on Made In Chelsea or TOWIE. By the way I enjoy my weekly dose of Made In Chelsea. Don't get me wrong but don't judge me either. I laugh at their scripted misfortunes. Obviously I wouldn't laugh if it was serious. Come on. But it's literally the little things that will make me amused and I go with that because I think it's healthy. Follow my lead, don't let people make you feel stupid about what stupid things you find amusing, play it off the cool way. Shame I don't think I'm cool. But amuse yourself, go on.

Ah shoot distracted again moving on. 

Honestly don't know what I was trying to say when I started writing this. Ah well live and let live.